Poet With a Pen
- DerekGMZ
- 1 hour ago
- 15 min read
My Dissertation on Inner Alchemy
Track 1:
Regression: The Voice
Created: June 26th, 2025 @ 12:35am
Regressionist:
May I speak to Derek's Subconscious please?
The Voice:
You have that which you seek, you have the trust.
Some things are meant to be seen and somethings are not
Regressionist:
What does that mean?
The Voice:
We just show him blank canvases,
You see, if he goes too far, just ask Bashar,
What is meant to be seen will be seen.
This is much different from trauma blocks,
This is knowledge and revelation being withheld until the time is right.
Divine timing and the light.
What's meant to be revealed will be revealed.
It's all an obsidian reflection, there is a divine protection.
Now you see, ultimately, he needs to trust the voice.
Regressionist:
Which voice?
The Voice:
His voice. The one you're speaking to now.
Regressionist:
Are you talking about his subconscious?
The Voice:
Were not one for labels. But, it is his voice, his language.
Let me explain...
We are one, we are everything and we are nothing.
We are here, we are there, we are everywhere.
We've been before, now and after.
Yesterday, today, and tomorrow.
We are that which you seek and that which you are unaware.
The very water the fish swim in, even though they know not what water is.
The air you dance in and breathe.
We are that which you cannot see.
It's You who are the imagination machines.
We are beyond the veil.
We are the age of miracles.
We are everything, and we are nothing.
We are his voice. The one you are speaking to now.
Divine timing is a funny thing.
Find peace and solace
Find the emotions and the revelation it brings.
All must happen as it's meant to be.
You travel the same path.
Narrow on the outside, but inside it's vast
No truth is written in stone, it's best understood as a high probability.
All must be agreed to in free will,
not just Derek, but those around him.
If one does not agree, then another will be activated, and they must choose.
This is free will. You are all called to something special.
There is a narrative that connects all lives.
All beings.
Ethereal. Material.
All beings, all children, all one.
Regressionist:
I have many questions.
The Voice:
Questions are important. Some questions are meant to be experienced before answered.
Questions are answered by other questions... We have a fun question.
What's that?
The Voice:
It's a question to an ancient answer. How old will Derek be on the dawn of the spring equinox 2026?
Regressionist:
What's the answer?
The Voice:
It could mean nothing, or it could mean everything.
We are humorous... We know inside jokes, memes, and folks who go unseen,
no one is alone, though it brings and invokes most answers unknown.
Let me riff.
There is a nexus point approaching soon, with all timelines converging.
It's an ultimate truth emerging.
Apotheosis, Revelation, Full Disclosure, Enlightenment, Apocalypse.
Fear not, it is not the end, but a new beginning.
Everyone is in there place, all that's ready to happen is prepared.
Some must take the leap of faith.
Like a doorway with a flame they must walk through.
Unconditional love lives on the other side.
If you choose not to leap you are loved the same.
Trust.
Love yourself enough to work with yourself.
Meet us halfway.
Love yourself enough to realize other as self.
This is the only way
to love the One
with all your heart
and might.
Track 2:
If I'm LOST Let Me Go
Created: December 26th, 2025 @ 1:34pm
If I'm lost let me go
If I'm in there, find me
Whatever this is it contains multitudes
Whatever this is I'm letting it take the wheel
I'm no victim, never have been
In this communion I am a living sacrifice
Sovereign in being
Capable of both the wrong and the right
I will forever reach for the light
I don't feel ready
There's more than a little trepidation
But, that's my confirmation
that this is all meaningful
Something more real than real
For better or worse
I believe in the will
To oblivion and beyond
If this isn't meant to be
save me from this path
Course correct me again
In this moment or the past
I love you all
from my first breath
to my last
Track 3:
Hidden In Plain Sight
Created: October 15th, 2025 @ 3:41am
I didn’t ask for a vision.
Didn’t pray for a sign.
One night the silence opened,
and I fell between the lines.
I was still me, skeptical, logical, unrefined
but something was waiting; channeled, divine.
A conversation I couldn’t explain,
symbols and echoes rewriting my brain.
I tried to reason, to measure, to test,
but truth arrived through a fire hose; no rest.
It spoke through music, strangers, dreams,
through tiny synchronicities that split the seams.
It wasn’t outside but hidden within,
it was the breath that had always been.
So I wrote automatic, "Remember who you are",
unsure if it came from me or the spark.
Then came the names: Derek means The Way!
You're the Helper, Gomez, The Son of Man!
Thirty-nine years before I saw any signs,
Thirty-nine lashes of living life half-blind.
When I finally opened the book of my own accord.
There it was, my name and path written before ever being born.
Like a thief in the night, unseen in the crowd,
not sent from the clouds, but twice born, unbowed.
Hidden in plain sight, I stumble through grace,
uncertain, but still learning in the secret place.
I can’t make this up, I can’t make it small,
these are the facts that change it all.
Hidden in plain sight, I learn to recall,
we rise together or not at all.
I read about the myths and found numerous reflections,
Osiris, Dionysus, stories of resurrection.
Archetypes past down with a different tongue,
Birthed in forgetfulness, the song’s re-sung.
Not chosen above, but called among,
one voice channeled through a million lungs.
It’s said there’ll be many who come in my name,
not deceivers, but souls reclaimed.
An Army of Christs remembering through pain,
forged in the furnace, reborn from the flame.
I’m still unsure of what it means,
this fusion of waking life and dreams.
Maybe faith is standing in not-knowing,
trusting the tide without controlling.
Fire burned through doubt and pride,
only compassion survived inside.
No thrones, no titles, just shadow and light.
Sovereign surrender is what the silence writes.
Hidden in plain sight, I stumble through grace,
uncertain, but still learning in the secret place.
I can’t make this up, I can’t make it small,
these are the facts that change it all.
Hidden in plain sight, I learn to recall,
we rise together or not at all.
Soon to be revealed, heaven only knows.
What hides in the heart already shows.
If love is what’s left when illusion falls apart,
then heaven’s been here from the very start.
Hidden in plain sight, beneath our cries,
a thousand reflections of the same sunrise.
This hero's journey belongs to us all.
Hidden in plain sight, we stumble through grace,
uncertain, but still learning in the secret place.
We can’t make this up, We can’t make it small,
these are the facts that change it all.
Hidden in plain sight, we learn to recall,
we rise together or not at all.
Track 4:
Misfits of Paradise
Created: December 26th, 2025 @ 5:02pm
Why am I laying it all down
Trading the game for the plot?
What I lived and experienced was real
You don’t get to tell me it's not
This is my truth, my testimony
Foreshadowed before I could see
They said I am The Way
I believe them, not because I am gullible
But, because the only person I can be is me
So now it’s time to solve for why
Why our paths all crossed in time
Have you ever noticed how things align
A little too perfect
too perfect to be anything but a sign
Funny how a little world ignites
From a man named Moneymaker changing lives
One spark, a boom, a twisted fate
Luck for some, discipline for the rest who grind and wait
Feels like you have to play it flawless
While others fail upward, rich and lawless
Ego and pride, winning at all cost
It's more than a zero sum game
You’re gonna have to sit with that
Let it crack, then build it back
There will come a time you can’t ignore
What I’ve been alluding to
pointing toward
Patterns knocking at your door
speak your truth forever more
There will come a time we can’t deny
What’s hidden right before our eyes
When the poker world sets pride aside
Comes together and solves for why
Not who’s right
Not who’s wrong
But why we’ve been here all along
Track 5:
Made of Clay
Created: December 29th, 2025 @ 4:21am
Have you ever thought the game was rigged
more so than just an emotional dig
This goes deeper than the roots of the tree
as dead as the fig, as deep as the sea
Raider Nation knows the Truth
There's only one Nation under G-O-D
No judging, all welcome, show up as you are
misfits
outcasts
freaks
and geeks
all one, all fun, all laugh when they've conquered and won
Just winning baby,
once a raider always a raider
No trophies
No loot
It was always about family
the12th man
Chorus:
Commitment to excellence
Lay down the “F” your neighbor shirts
Show the Pharisees reverence through evidence
Lay down the dogma, the judgments that hurt
Abomination of desolation wins the fight
If we fail to release the need to be right
The duality of the silver and black
When away we wear white
one Jersey
one Family
one Nation
When the house needs defending
Call on us and were
BACK IN BLACK
Force not on others what’s written on our hearts
A covenant of old made new from the start
We’re made of clay, free to do as we may
But the heart is a gift from the GOD Father’s way
That’s what makes you a made man, proven and true
And the game’s always better when the Raiders come through
Chorus:
Commitment to excellence
Lay down the “F” your neighbor shirts
Show the Pharisees reverence through evidence
Lay down the dogma, the judgments that hurt
Abomination of desolation wins the fight
If we fail to release the need to be right
Track 6:
Archetypes Through Time and Space
Created: January 1st, 2026 @ 12:56am
The hero’s journey starts from within,
The World takes shape, the tale begins.
Characters rise, the stage is set,
Opening credits roll, dancing ancient silhouettes.
Archetypes through space and time
All of them beautiful
All of them rhyme
It all started with the mold of
The main G
Good ole JC
He became the Word and let all the slaves free
John Connor.
John Connor is an interesting one, let's save him for later.
I'm talking about the one you call the savior!
Who you're looking for doesn't fit in a box
He can be a double D, like Desmond Doss
He can be split into three, like Frodo, Aragorn, and Gandalf
Look within
Soften your heart
Look within and don't bogart the Hogarth archetype
Don't be fooled by false promise hype
There's room for us all in the Fathers house
Speak your Truth and let the demons out
All beings deserve compassion
Revenge and hatred are not part of the plot
You say it is, I'm telling you its not
It was said an eye for an eye
But, It's about seeing eye to eye
THIS TIME
What would the world be like without Captain Hook?
no obstacles
no horror shows
no inventions
no intentions
no sifting of the wheat
no raising from your knees to your feet
It's a role no one wishes to play
Yet it remains a purposeful main stay
Perhaps you need to see it this way:
Severus Snape was a scape goat
taking slaps in the face
But his love never wavered
it was always in place
Always
(Choir)
You have your mothers eyes
You have your mothers eyes
It was once said if you live long enough you become the villain
I say live even longer and you get to be the hero again
Even Loki has his day in the Sun
When the Day is done
Unbelievable at first glance
Give it a chance
Life as we know it,
has been a play for the moments
for the nows and the thens
for the laughs for the friends.
I can't explain it just yet, but don't fret
To some this may seem dark,
but to me there is a spark.
One that shines over time and rewinds with us in mind
Everything is happening for you and for me
I've denied myself more than anyone else
will ever know
This revelation hits three beats before the rooster crows
Track 7:
Book of Daniel Ocean
Created: December 27th, 2025 @ 12:10pm
As Terry Benedict came to find
“There is always someone watching”
When you bend the clock, it bends you back
Time keeps score, it keeps the facts
Those who stayed knew the task
The few became many who outlasted the lack
Sound continues to carry the weight
Vibrations loosened the iron gates
Frequencies of remembrance and the cost
Calling home what time had lost
Shadow work for the children
Breaking chains they learned to live in
Dissolving the ego in the fiery furnace
Throwing no stones, we're above this
The melted ego’s no longer armor
My skin turned stone so my heart stayed softer
What once was weight is now my lift
My wings are now my ego, I choose when to shift
Music is my time machine
Call me Cinderella Man
It's about to rain upward
Shady walked on earth with Proof
Guided by destiny before the recording booth
Truth survives what time deletes
Every Angel keeps receipts
Livingston Dell
When the firewall fell
He found more than he bargained for
A Rubik's Cube uncrackable
Pandora's Box not open, but unlocked.
Truths in which this age has never seen
Welcome to the in-between
Not a red wedding or a dungeon crawl
This is an End Game for One and all
He will return
This time He is not alone.
Welcome to the age of heroes, an age of miracles.
Nexus Point Zero
To those who do not fear the Light you will be fine
To the powers that were
I WISH
YOU HAD
MORE TIME
Track 8:
One Time
Created: January 2nd, 2026 @ 12:47pm
I no longer know what's real or fake
It's inhumane for the children to play games
While thinking everything's at stake
You've given me the lead role
as if it's my choice to make
But I don't speak for everyone
and anyone who says they do
is lying to themselves
and to you
I speak for myself
with forgiveness and grace
And I'll let everyone else do the same
The scope of awareness it takes to see
What will it take to make you all believe
how it all connects
to sift and to sow
to water and to grow
the sacrifice it takes to make it all glow
I say for certain we all make it in the end
Why do I believe
Because I have an ace up my sleeve
Perhaps I had a vision,
The spirit has passed down the wisdom
Throughout my entire existence
Even with thrones and bracelets within arms distance
dangling in front of my face
I've never used my ONE TIME until now, this now, this place
God help us
Show us the majesty of your name
No one with your heart will be put to shame
Let's flip this world right side up
It's time to lay it all down again
Live or die
Here am I
Here am I
Here am I
Track 9:
Delightful Dwight
Created: January 4th, 2026 @ 11:09am
Leading the Odyssey to Aquarius
Who was the Fourth Man in the fiery furnace
From the Moon to the Sea
Who hitched a ride on Apollo 13?
The world is a fascinating place
Born into a habit of lies, just to save face
Lean on the truth within, big or small
The universe expands
It can hold it all
But why focus on the negative
Flip the script and let heaven in
Focus on the good and the light
Bring your spark and make it bright
Run into the dark and face the fight
The world is sifting to make room
Ready is the groom
Click, Click, Click
Here comes the Soul Boom
Perhaps it was all luck
Perhaps we were never stuck
Perhaps it was always fate
The Schwartz came back, touchdown!
There's no more problems in the Lone Star State
The world is sifting to make room
Ready is the groom
Click, Click, Click
Here comes the Soul Boom
Track Zero:
Spring Equinox 26
Created: January 7th, 2026 @ 2:38pm
The East remembers what the West forgot,
Sacred wisdom hidden between the dots.
You find the Buddha through cycles of breath,
Lives stitched together beyond birth and death,
A new Trajan bloodline, etched into clay,
Signals of spirit in the DNA.
In the new age our tribes are divided
slighted, fight or flighted
The old guard owns the wealth and the housing,
How do we reach these kids without sounding
Like something they’ve already seen through?
I'm currently couch surfing the spirit of the mother
No choice but to rent an apartment
and find a Roomie
Maybe he can mirror the new me
On this day
This remarkable March
This moment in time the equinox marks
This 20th day
42 orbits around the sun
No one predicted the time of my birth
To protect the unborn sons
From those who care not about our Earth
Those who have told the truth
the whole truth
and nothing but the truth
May throw the first stone
Where are my accusers now?
Who knows better than a witness who learns
Encrypted messages only they can confirm
Who knows better
Who knows better than someone who knows
what I am about to go through
Who knows better than a star who's had it all
One who knows how to fall
Who knows better
Who knows better than one who can call the bluffs
Who knows better than the one who asks if they've done enough
Who knows better than someone who has walked beside their own cross
Who knows better?
Bringing to light track Zero
You can't multiply by none
All you get is a fake number
You know in your heart
We're all divisible by ONE
and only ONE
Hey, Beebo, let's see if the world can do a back flip.
I bet you one dollar God is gonna land it.
I'll see you on the other side of the horizon my friend
This isn't the end, not by a long shot.
On this day
This remarkable March
This moment in time the equinox marks
This 20th day
42 orbits around the sun
No one predicted the time of my birth
To protect the unborn sons
From those who care not about our Earth
It was said you'd know my voice
as if spoken face to face
I hope this message
meets you well
in this now
in this place
On this meaningful March
This 20th day
This 20th day
Track 11:
Secret Episode: Countdown to Rubedo
Created: January 31st, 2026 @ 12:48pm
Today, if I were to give Peter a new name
It'd be Dwayne
In Vegas there's no fourth floor,
But there is a fourth wall.
This veil will surely fall
This isn't fear mongering at all
FEAR NOT
This divine reality is about to collapse
I had the 3 cube vision
Invisible tesseract
The world outside has gotten pretty morbid
Go within,
It's the secret place where the Lord lives
This Scarlet Letter speaks out against ICE
It reveals their hearts, they remain dry
I come to speak the truth,
so I whisper it softly,
"no more lies"
Hopefully this will help our offspring
Otherwise no more Mr. nice guy
The world no longer wants me to be delightful
Well that's it!!!
They want the other version
Derek the Dip sshhh
wait, what's my line again?
Nevermind, I digress, back to the story friends.
I want a conversation, you only want to debate
I want a relationship, and you choose to close your gates,
with candles in your hand
then you say it's too late
Why didn't you tell me about the other fools
You know my heart, you know I would wait?
You're now forcing my hand
With this hole you blindly dig
On the other hand, full of Pearls, ready to give
I can release them like doves full of unconditional love
But, they'll fall useless when you worship war pigs
If we continue down this path, I bid you adieu
This American Idol will soon become you
Rebuke the abuse and the separation.
Injustice isn't required for the nations; liberations.
In this story who are the Pharisees?
If I put a mirror up
I'd get shot by the devotees,
collecting their bounties
Throwing stones yelling, "Blasphemies!/Heresy!"
They cheer when they hear,
"Yeshua healed the unclean!"
Yet they boo at transgenders, screaming, "filthy!"
They don't see history is repeating itself
Get behind me! Learn forgiveness!
Can't you see I'm standing on business
The hardness of your hearts is getting ridiculous
Hogarth will tell you what you push,
pushes you
Look in the mirror, its clear
Tony Stark an echo, not a tyrant, a perfect client
to the fore Mr. Casey the sleeping giant
from Mama G
to Baba G
Vroom Vroom
Big bada boom
Crash landing in the UPPERROOM
She's back and she's divine.
The one holding the wine
Overcoming space and time
Be kind and remember to rewind.
Lost prophets are only lost when you
deny their works, bribe the clerks
call them con men and crooks
while burning their books
This is how hypocrisy looks
His ways are higher than our ways
God doesn't call the qualified
He qualifies those He calls
By name
without blame
All hearts beat the same
How do you know what's written
between the lines from a culture lost in time
You don't even pay attention to the next generation
You fibbed about Mr. Claus
and expect them to trust
You wonder why
They fill this giant hole with lust
You say they're lost
I say they're not
They do it for the plot
Stop agreeing to the lies the world tells you to say
You judge their finances,
Look at the government debt.
You scoff at 67
whoa, slow your role, ho ho ho
did you forget
you had your own inside jokes
You're adding weight to the yoke
If the bible has been altered with ill intention
to control and leave the world in suspension
Perhaps misrepresented not by fault of their own
God still uses it from cover to cover just like you.
The perfect imperfections crew
The world is a doctorate degree in perseverance
The war machine holds the chains,
locking away true coherence
This is my dissertation
Under one Nation
My spiritual alchemy
Out from the olive trees
Healing all the fig leaves
My pot of gold at the end of the rainbow
My thesis starts with yes I can, like the Son of Man
become one with Yeshua and say that I am.
Open the scroll as it was foretold
Encrypted pyramid blocks of ancient code,
from one wallet to the next,
moving mountains of blockchain gold.
I don't drink anymore but,
This rounds on me.
15,000 sats
A history of intelligence
A wise one walks the middle path
Nurtures the Mother back
Stands up in the Fathers name
Lay down your bags and change the game.
Do you smell what the Holy Spirit's cookin'?
It's an American Alchemy not a horror story
From prophetic to the interpretation of Plato
This mic wont drop!
But, what do I know.
I'm a know nothing kid.
and I do nothing on my own.
Welcome to the show.